August 2, 2008 at 11:10 pm (Uncategorized)

I spent a good part of Friday in downtown San Jose with a few friends. Here are my reflexiones.

It was really cool to spend some time in the city, it made me feel a lot more comfortable with it. I appreciate it a lot more now, the bustling, the people just everywhere. The smells, the sodas, kids with their moms, old ladies, Ticos just reeking of cologne. Just being comfortable in a city setting.

I like the feeling of walking down these streets, chin up, a rough idea of where I’m going, and a sense of calm. Perhaps its not even a sense of calm, its just the lack of a sense of panic.

That’s one thing I’ve come to love about being here – maybe it’s even my favorite thing. The complete and utter absence of that acidic, black-slimeball-in-my-stomach feeling. That feeling of being perpetually on edge, just waiting for things to go wrong, just worrying – they don’t do that here.

It’s almost unimaginable – to live without worry. Vivir sin preocuparse. Until you let yourself go, really just surrender to it, you just can’t understand it.

But once that reality takes over your heart, something inside you changes forever. It is a beautiful change.

And I just don’t want it to slip away when I get back, so this has been my weak attempt to catch it carefully, to tie it down with words that can never truly describe it.


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